Last night I was feeding Charlotte before she went to bed. We were sitting in the glider in her room, all you could hear was the fan spinning above us and the cars buzzing by outside. She was so sweet and peaceful cuddled up next to me. I looked at her and realized how big she is getting. She is longer than the width of the glider, her feet push against the arms. She used to be so small that she fit on top of a boppy pillow.
5 months ago, we would have had to have a pillow and a boppy on my lap so that she would be in the correct position to feed. Her feedings used to be an event. I would get into the rocker, place the pillow just so, then align the boppy so that her head would be high enough. After that, I would position her so that her latch would be as painless as possible and then she would latch. I would hold my breath and clench my jaws until the pain of her latch subsided. She would eat and fall asleep. After she drained one side, I would need to wake her up, so I would change her diaper. After changing her diaper we would repeat the process for the other side. The whole scenario would take 45 minutes.
Now, she can eat anywhere or anytime. I have fed her in the airport, in Babies R Us, in the car in parking lots, even on the beach. There isn't a boppy or pillow, just my lap. It is so effortless and painless now and takes about 10-15 minutes. If you would have told me 5 months ago that I was considering breastfeeding longer than 6 months, I would have told you that you were crazy. Now I can't think about not sharing those special moments with her. It forces us to have a quiet moment together during the day. I have come to cherish those quiet moments with her - just us. There aren't many of those moments left, if I'm lucky, 6 more months of them. I plan to savor every one.