Tuesday, August 19

The Best Feeling


Charlotte had a rough night last night. She woke up at 11 o'clock screaming and screaming. We had no idea what was wrong. Judd went in and tried to rock her and calm her down, but she continued to scream. She had a really bad diaper rash yesterday evening, so I thought that was bothering her. I changed her diaper and put a little more cream on her bum. That didn't seem to help, the screaming continued.

I sat in the rocker and fed her a little bit. She quieted down and drifted back to sleep. She was so peaceful and beautiful alseep in my lap. I quietly kissed her little forehead and laid her back in the crib. Her eyes POPPED open and her face scrunched up in a silent scream. After about 5 seconds the silence was broken with her cry. She seemed so betrayed - how could I have put her down?

I picked her up and put her head on my shoulder and sat in the rocker. Like a light she was out again. I could feel her breathing against me, her little breath on my neck. I realized then that she felt safe with me. I know most of you are thinking, "of course she feels safe with you, you're her mother" - but when you know for the first time, without a doubt, that you are the one that can make your child feel safe and secure, it is the best feeling in the world.

4 comments:

Molly said...

yikes, that sounds scary...teething? lactose intolerance? bad dream? all I remember from being around babies growing up (I'm #2 out of 7) was that when they have the silent scream, it's pain or they're REALLY scared, but you probably know that, or rather, you know HER. Hope your week is less eventful!

Rachel said...

So glad you make her feel safe and comfortable, what a great Mom she has! I love your pictures, they are so beautiful, you really are a talented photographer!

Sara said...

Absolutely beautiful picture, Carrie-the colors, the eyes!! She is the most beautiful Baby Dear. The picture just draws you in and makes you want to get her out of her crib.

Love,
Me

Merri said...

How sweet Carrie! I know you love being a mommy and know you are so good at it! She is precious and I hope to meet her sometime soon! Thanks for your comment on my blog :-) I love how you have signed your name on here..that is so cute...how do you do that?