Dirty Laundry

Did you watch Oprah yesterday? It was awesome. A room full of moms airing all of their dirty laundry in an effort to help other moms understand that we are all going through the same things. This morning I thought I'd join in, so here it goes:

• I HATE doing the laundry. My hamper is overflowing now, and will probably be that way for a couple more days - meaning that dirty clothes will be all over our bathroom floor.
• I HATE ironing more than I hate doing laundry. And this isn't good because I usually let the dry clothes sit in the laundry basket for a couple of days before I put them away - meaning they are very wrinkly. So, I usually only wear my dry clean only pants to work because they have been dry cleaned and are the only pants I own without wrinkles.
• When I was breastfeeding Charlotte, I only rinsed out my pump parts after pumping - rarely did I fill up a sink with soapy water and wash the parts properly.
• Our bed only gets clean sheets every 2 weeks - and that's because my cleaning lady does it.
• It is my job to pay the bills, and I am terrible at it. We've received many a cut off notice over the years. (nothing has ever actually been cut off, though, whew)
• I secretly loathe really skinny moms. I know that they are the perfect wife, perfect employee, cook healthy dinners for their family each night, do perfect laundry, make art projects with their kids, and exercise every day - because if you are skinny you are perfect at everything, right?
• Charlotte's bath toys just sit at the bottom of the tub each night after her bath probably collecting all sorts of bath grime. I know I should rinse them off and let them dry, but I don't.
• I give in to Charlotte a lot more than I thought I would. Most of the time if she cries, she gets what she wants. I'm slowly creating a monster.
• I'm terrible at remembering dates. For Christmas, my mom gave me a calendar with birthdays & anniversaries already filled out - at the beginning of March I missed calling my sister on her anniversary. Each year I say I'm going to be better - and I never am.
• I am wracked with guilt every day because I'm not sure I'm doing the right thing by continuing to work. I justify it well, but still feel very guilty that someone else is raising my child 5 days/week (now 4 days/week)
• I buy organic food for Charlotte - I know it is probably better, but I do it mostly because I feel pressure from society.
• I take out my frustrations on my dog. I never hit her, but I yell sometimes. I feel awful afterwards every time.
• I only spend 3 hours with Charlotte in the evenings - but I am exhausted when she goes to bed. Almost every afternoon we go for a walk just because it is a break for me. Why do I need a break when I'm only with her for 3 hours?
• I let Charlotte rip everything out of our bathroom cabinets to keep her busy while I need to get ready - this means she is usually walking around shaking a bottle of prenatal vitamins - the poster child for Poison Control - or running around with feminie supplies in her hands.

So there you go. I'm sure this isn't it, but maybe it will help an overwhelmed mom out there feel a little better about herself. You got any dirty laundry?