The Light

An hour or so before the sun goes down, the light in the col-de-sac behind our house is gorgeous. I love to take my camera out during this time to take pictures while Charlotte plays. Examples here, here, and here.

In the past two years I have become somewhat obsessed with photography. I absolutely love it. I find myself looking at light differently. While driving I'll see beautiful pockets of light and wish that I had a subject to set up in that light. This past week I was outside with Charlotte pushing her in her little pink car and noticed how the light from the sun was reflecting off of the house across the street - and realized how important natural relection can be.

So, you will probably keep seeing Charlotte in this same place over and over again - because I'm not sure I'll ever tire of the way the sun and light look in these pictures. I can't tell you how much I wish there was as beautiful grassy field behind my house rather than a brown house, but you just have to make the best of it.

Snuggles

The upside of a sick toddler is snuggle time.

This is my entry for the Beyond Snapshots contest. Do you have a big nice camera or a point and shoot but are frustrated with your shots?? you should check out the Beyond Snapshots blog.

Trash to Treasure

Last night I made Sarah's roasted chicken. It is an awesome recipe and I feel like such a domestic goddess when I make it. Not only do you have an awesome golden bird to eat the first night, but you have 2 more nights worth of chicken for dinners throughout the week. See, isn't it purty?

However, when you are finished carving it, shredding it, and picking every last ounce of chicken off of it's bones, you are left with a greasy, ugly pile of stuff. All of this stuff gets dumped into the trash can in our house.

Today I get the dreaded call around 11:30am. My phone's caller ID says, "Child Development Center." This is hardley ever a good thing. I've been told that Charlotte threw up (a lot) during lunch and needed to be picked up. I had been praying that we would avoid this stomach bug that's going around, but no such luck.

So, I leave the office and go to pick her up. We walked through the door at home and I immediately knew what was waiting in the kitchen. I knew that the trash had been emptied and rummaged through by a certain black dog because that certain black dog was not there to greet us when we walked through the door. I guess the smell of chicken remains was more than she could take. She ate the entire thing - not a bone left in the trash can. She also ate every last red onion that the chicken cooked with as well.

So, not only are we bracing ourselves to clean up Charlotte throw up tonight - we have the dog to worry about too. Wish us luck.

Hanging it up

Over Christmas I made a decision. One that has been nagging me from the minute I went back to work after my maternity leave with Charlotte. One that has been harder to make than having children in the first place. I have decided to leave IBM and stay at home with Charlotte.

Every single day of the past 2 years the question has been in the back of my mind - "Do I really need or want to be working? Or do I need or want to be at home with Charlotte?" If you know me well, you are probably sick and tired of hearing about this decision and the fact that I have never been at peace with it.

Why has this decision been so hard for me?

1. IBM has been SO good to me. When I joined IBM a little over 5 years ago, it was my dream job with my dream company. I have been able to go part time and work from home on Mondays or when Charlotte is sick. I am really lucky - lots of working mothers would love to have my flexibility.
2. While we don't need my income - it sure is nice.
3. I have technical skills that will become obsolete in a year if I am not changing and evolving with each new thing. The languages I use to develop applications may not even be around in 5-6 years when/if I go back to work.
4. I enjoy the challenges of solving an issue or creating a new business process.
5. Charlotte is doing really well in daycare - her language skills are amazing to me, she interacts with other children really well, she is able to be more independent.
6. I really enjoy the quiet days working at home on Mondays. I also enjoy the adult interaction in the office (most of the time). I really enjoy drinking a cup of coffee at my desk with no one pulling on my legs.
7. Because it is easier to continue with status quo. It is easier to just keep working - because that's what I have always done.

Why did I make this decision?
1. I'm the type of person that is happiest when I can give 100% to what I am doing. I haven't felt like I could ever truly give 100% to work or Charlotte. If I was at work, I felt the pull at home. If I was at home, my mind would drift to work.
2. I am stressed out a lot. I don't like to be stressed out. I don't handle it very well. I tend to raise my voice a lot when I'm stressed.
3. Things are changing at work. Our group is changing priorities. They aren't necessarily the same priorities I have.
4. If I don't ever give myself the chance to stay at home with Charlotte - I will ALWAYS wonder what it would have been like.

I am extremely lucky that I can do this. I know a lot of people don't get to make this decision - financially it is made for them. I realize that and I am very grateful.

I also want to say that I didn't do this because I think day care is evil. I think that the right day care situation can be a wonderful thing. We have been very lucky to have Charlotte in the day care that she is in. She has grown so much. Her teachers are kind, loving, wonderful people. In fact, I am nervous that I won't be able to continue to teach her as well as they have.

My last official day is Feb 15th. I'll be working from home beginning Feb 1st. I don't have day care starting Feb 1st - so those two weeks may be a little hectic.

I am so looking forward to this next chapter. I have my new dream job. I am able to spend my days playing with our girl. She is at such a fun age, I just want to soak it up.

Lastly, a big thank you to Judd. The poor guy has put up with a lot over the past 2 years. I couldn't have made this decision without his support. I think that's why this decision has been so hard - because he has left it to me to make 100% - but he supported whatever I wanted to do. I think he has heard me talk about this more times than he can count. He has taken the brunt of it when I have been stressed to the max - sometimes it amazes me that he still loves me.

So, who wants to schedule a play date?

Changes Being Made

There are some changes being made around the Davis household. Some fairly major changes.

Two Tuesdays ago Judd and I each made a life change. Judd went in for a routine physical to find that he needs to be a little more careful with what he eats and needs to start exercising.

So, he watched the Good Eats special where Alton Brown described how he lost 50 lbs. AB did this by creating 4 different lists - foods to eat every day, foods to eat 2-3 times per week, foods to have once per week, and foods to avoid. He also explained that he made a smoothie every morning that contains purple foods with antioxidants (blueberries, etc), bananas, and soy milk (for protien).

Judd has done well, already lost a few pounds. We have been making better choices about what we buy at the grocery store. He joined a gym and is working out about 3 times per week. He has also perfected he art of the smoothie. Charlotte LOVES to "eat Daddy's bek-fast".

More on my major change tomorrow.

Goofy

Charlotte is such a goof ball.

Today I picked her up from day care and she had one of her backup outfits on. Since I hadn't refilled her cubby with backup outfits since September - you can imagine that it was a little small and quite Summery (is that a word?). It went well with her brown winter boots. Plus the fact that she had been munching on wood chips or dirt or something out on the play ground because her face was covered in dirt crusted snot. She was quite the looker.

It doesn't matter what she looks like, though - when she sees me and starts running towards me with a huge grin - she could be covered in poo and I wouldn't care. (that's not true - I'd probably draw the line at poo - but you get the idea)

We got home and she said, "hat, Mommy?". I said I didn't know where her hat was. She replied, "shirt hat Mommy!!". And then this is what she did.

Rome,Italy or Harrisburg, PA?

While Judd went to Rome this past weekend, Charlotte and I were in PA. Sure, Charlotte and I didn't get to see the sights of Rome or eat fresh pasta, but we did get to attend the Pennsylvania Farm Show with my parents and drink chocolate milk shakes. All joking aside, Charlotte and I had a wonderful weekend. I got to see both of my sisters and brother-in-laws on Sunday, went shopping with my mom, and hung out with my dad.

I didn't have my camera with me, at the Farm Show, I had the Flip. I think I'm starting to love video almost as much as still pictures. Good thing I have two hands.